2006-05-03 1:19 a.m.
wow. how time flies. its been one whole year since i last wrote here and so many things have changed. reading through the archives brought me back to the past. i remember you, and you, and you - i remember those days. this particular online journal recorded those crazy moments.. and here i am reliving them, and it feels as if it was yesterday that i was still sitting in that sa cafe staring at you, mesmerized, totally taken.

we meet different people at different stages of our lives, and its AMAZING. i would never have imagined myself slowly falling for her now, just like i'd never imagine that u'd slowly disappear from my life. it's so easy to take the present for eternity. and it's so fucking amazing how life often turns out.. different. so what's gonna happen next? i have absolutely new idea. i have changed - thats for sure - and i certainly want different things in my life now. i've grown to be openminded, to realize that everyone can make their own choice themselves. you dont have to approve of my life, neither do i have to do the same. we live our own lives.

right, if ive learned anything at all in this past 2 years it's that we've the right to do whatever that we think is good for ourselves. and life is too damn short to be unhappy abt our lives and the choices we make, so why not follow your heart?

anyway.. i dont know why but i cannot seem to give you up. it's really not as serious as i make it sound, because you're supposedly nothing to me. i know almost near to zero abt u, and what i do know of u is superficial and unimportant.. but i am so drawn to u. i cannot NOT have you, and thats a thought that scares me. why am i so adamant abt u? the only reason i can think of is becos u're so beautiful in ur own way.. and i wanna be with u all the time and look at u all the time. i wanna take care of u... even if i know so little abt u now. it's so weird it's freaking me out.




2005-04-07 11:24 p.m.
i'm just wondering if this still works?




2004-11-04 12:31 a.m.
i am somewhat alarmed at my stupidity these days, so it's history notes for me NOW NOW NOW.

now.